Fresh from high school innocent and obedient lady i gladly embraced the routine outside school but something had all of a sudden changed did things i never imagined myself doing. It seems a lot like a new me that never was but is. A lot transpired that made me view life in a totally different way.
Addicted to pornographic videos I would spend the whole night fantasizing and satisfying myself of the urge. Every cent I earned would directly be used to buy bundles that would sustain my watching on YouTube. Days passed as well as months and I still could not get enough of the watching. This was a time where I lost the knowledge of respecting the Lords house and would continuously have the large to explore as the service continued.
Aside from pornography I had the urge to explore all types of men and have them at the palm of my hand just to exploit and take control over them. These thoughts surpassed my reasoning ability to come up with ideas that would be beneficial to my life. I lost the ability to respect both myself and the people around me. Sex was the main topic of my life though i never did it in reality. It was just in my mind and thoughts.
A hopeless and disgusting life I had ended when my fourth form results came out. I never knew anything good would come out of an addict to the most explicit videos. It called for a change in my life and a new start -over. A life changing event that made me think wider than limiting to sexual thoughts. It felt like a light at the end of the tunnel. The best results i could wish for my reckless life. Now am planning to take a course that would help me enlighten peoples lives.
An approval from the same God that I never respected while in church and behaved in the most stupid manner of the highest order. For sure he had a plan for me a plan of prosperity but not failure. When i look a back into my life, I really have come a long way. Life is not what you think it is but is what you make it. I thought my life revolved around what I thought I needed but it had much positive goodies held for me if only I could stop thinking but make it.
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